Playing Catch Up

I feel like I've been constantly playing catch up with myself for the last 3 months. I'm definitely in a period of intense growth and it is hard to keep up. I pivot so often and with such agility that it's often hard for me to be aware even of what is occuring! I recently found out that astrologically, my 1st house is in Pluto, and that explains my constant cycling of death and rebirth.

Pluto rules my first house, fiery Leo my sun, fiery Sag my moon and airy Libra my rising

Finally, an explanation! So bear with me, as I am constantly being reborn and getting to know myself!

I'll tell you what does help me though, due to life being the most incredible teacher, I’m well versed in the practise of surrendering. And right now, I am so grateful for it. It has helped me slip graciously into the multiple versions of self that have been showing up for integration.

(Nikki Walton's daily meditations, above, are a support system. Short, sweet and divine; a true gift.)

I have also decided that it is not quite discipline that does it, but devotion. In devotion to the God self within, in devotion to the juicy and abundant vision of life that is encoded in the genetic make up of the Angelic Human race, it is easy to do the seemingly hard things that get your life into shape when you are being turned into a diamond.

When my dad passed in Nov '22, I went into a sort of shock, and my body padded itself out to protect me. Almost 2 years on, I became ready to shift the excess weight and feel so much better, lighter and easier.

Instead the pressure feels mostly SWEET, like a good deep tissue massage.

I say all of this to say, I know I have been absent from blogging and this is why. But boy do I have a lot to share subsequently!

So much love, Zainab x